Mornings turn into nights. Dreary of the everything in between.
Those days were vulnerable as a bear trap. It was time that I needed to pick things up drastically and move on faster and further as I possibly can.
Letting go of everything in the presence gives an even better insight into the moment, the future, no matter how bad situations can become.
Following this advice on my own, I booked my own flight to backpack through Costa Rica on my own, no friends, no guides, just my appetite for experiencing new pleasure for a whole two weeks.
I tasted so much life. I lived. Through the things that actually had a powerful hand to drag me to the 'bottom,' I let go so much of everything. I became less of a person constantly living in fear of taking chances and experiencing a new life.
Two weeks of traveling from hostel to hostel, in the some of the most remote places of the world, a new life and new philosophy was blooming within me. A change if you will. What emerged from this experience is something I will cherish with me forever.
For now, I'm going to start keeping my tab on my travel writings and continue to search for places I will go. A move out of Tucson is my next dicey move in Tucson. I don't know where, but as long as I cannot reach the past.